Archive for April, 2007

BFF (And Ever, and Ever…)

The most amazing thing happened to me today:

I told someone that she was my best friend and she replied. “Good, becuase you’re mine.”

That’s the first time that’s ever happened. I’ve always felt less important to people than they are to me. This is almost more exciting than finding a husband!

Best friends are forever, after all. And she’s mine!

Yay!

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Because someone asked…

I want six kids. Three boys and three girls. I can guarentee a precise outcome because I want to adopt them all.

Names? Yes, I am that much of a geek. So, what if my future husband has an opinion? We’ll negotiate or something.

Boy Names:

Thompson Olin (Thom)
Austin Lee (Tin)
Jonathan Hiram (Jack)

Girl Names:

Montgomery Dororthy (Monty, Emery, Dottie)
Magdalene Lully (Maggie)
Beeler Ann (Bee)

I know. I’m a geek! Oh, well.

(Can you tell I’m Southern?)

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Keep your coins…

A commenter (Hi, A Mouse!) said:

I agree the VT deaths are sad. But I can’t help thinking that the heavy coverage of the incident is evidence that in general we fail to recognize or remember the ceaseless tragedies in much of the world. For example, during the two hours of the shootings at VT, something like 1200 children under age five in the third or developing worlds died from illnesses that are easily preventable or treatable in the first world. See UNICEF’s statistics for more. Are we numb to these deaths because this type of tragedy is constant? I suppose, more prosaically, that most individuals are affected more by tragedies whose circumstances are substantially similar to their own.

This got me thinking. It REALLY got me thinking. At first, my feathers were a little ruffled. (That tends to be stage one for me.) And then, I just started reflecting.

The Virginia Tech deaths are more than sad. They are a national tragedy. And the entire collegiate community has reacted because, you’re right. There’s a lot of pop psychology involved. We identify with people who look like us, talk like us, and act like us. I certainly do. It rips my heart out and it makes me cry. I think about the Holocaust survivor-turned-professor who threw himself in front of a door to save his students, and I fight tears. That’s painful. That’s unjust.

But I find myself unable to turn a blind eye to the injustice that is a crushing weight, and not only the United States but in the rest of the World. I have wept. When faced with the issues of overpopulation, world poverty, the crushing agony of the AIDS crisis, the issue of blood diamonds, children soldiers, hunger, genocide, and oppression, I have wept.

These things have driven me to my knees. I have cried out to God, begging Him for answers. How can there be such palatial abundance in some places and such desperate poverty in others? How can children in the sprawling suburbs of a prosperous America co-exist in a nation where other children, often just across the tracks, go hungry? Poverty, social injustice, and inequality is not a Third World problem.

It’s a people problem.

Many people who read this blog know that Robert Kennedy is my hero. ”A revolution is coming — a revolution which will be peaceful if we are wise enough; compassionate if we care enough; successful if we are fourtunate enough — But a revolution which is coming whether we will it or not. We can affect its character; we cannot alter its inevitability.” He spoke those words in 1966. What a hell of a time to be talking about revolution. The world was going to hell in a handbag.

It’s a people problem.

It’s time for another revolution. I reject the notion that we’re all oblivious. I reject the notion that nothing can change. That there is room for people to sit back and shake their heads about the under involvement of the people. Pick an issue and go with it.

What is it, this lie that’s been perpetrated against common citizens? That you must somehow be extraordinarily bright, and wise, and powerful to get things done? Who has allowed this lie? I believe that it’s the same people who have created the sweet little lie that the American people are too dumb to figure out what’s happening in American politics.

It’s a people problem.

People have been convinced that they’re too stupid, too out of it, and too sick of it to effect any sort of change. They complain about politicians, change the channel, and keep bitching about what’s happening in the world. It’s criminal. It’s a criminal conspiracy, perpetrated by the media, and politicians, and apathetic jerks.

It’s a people problem.

But the revolution is coming. Bobby said so. My favorite quote’s been posted here before, but it’s something that’s governed my life for a very long time. “It is from numberless diverse acts of courage and belief that human history is shaped. Each time a man stands up for an ideal, or acts to improve the lot of others, or strikes out against injustice, he sends forth a tiny ripple of hope, and crossing each other from a million different centers of energy and daring, those ripples build a current that can sweep down the mightiest walls of oppression and resistance.” He said that in Cape Town, South Africa. He was telling white South Africans, students, to resist apartheid. That it was radical. That was insane.

Virginia Tech was a tragedy. Children dying in Africa is a tragedy. There have been a hundred thousand tiny tragedies in my own life. My father committed suicide when I was 2. My mother died of AIDS. I’ve lost people that I loved desperately. There is empathy. There is agony. It lurks on every street corner and in every person’s story.

It’s a people problem.

So, I get down on my knees. I pray. I decide what to care about. Some days, I care about Africa. Some days, I don’t. And that has to be okay, because I’m just a person.

We’re all just people.

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HOKIES. HOKIES. HOKIES.

These are my people. These are students. They are like I am. They have facebook accounts and cell phones and they wear the flip flops I wear.

(A funeral home worker spoke of the horror. Not only of the horrific gore, but of the constant ringing and vibrating of the dead victims’ cell phones as people desperately tried to reach them.)

They are rabid sportsfans.

(They are in the conference I consider my own.)

They are annoyed at exams. They are stressed about papers.

(It is that time of year.)

They are friends and girlfriends and sisters and sons. They are student reporters, student leaders. They are Resident Assistants.

(Res Life tends to own your soul, you know.)


One of the people killed was an RA. I can only imagine that chain of events. Sitting in your room, at your computer. You hear a noise. You stand, you go to investigate. You know that it’s your responsibility to protect your floor, to keep sanity. And then you’re killed. Doing your job.

(Would I have died for my residents? I don’t know.)

These are my people. They are victims, powerless and broken. They are survivors, strong and proud. They are crying and I am, too. In the face of unspeakable evil and tragedy, I raise my eyes to a God of compassion, love, and adoration. Hokie Maroon and Orange are my colors. My heart bleeds for them.

“This is a tragedy in American history. So for today, forget any and all of your college affiliations. For today, we are all Hokies.”

We are
Virginia Tech.

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Lord, Have Mercy

Oh, Virginia Tech.

All I can do is pray and hope for the families, friends, and community there.

Another candle.

Another tragedy.

My heart just hurts.

I hope my friend Miki is okay. I don’t know. I haven’t heard anything about her.

Oh, Virginia Tech.

I’m so sorry.

(This is my 100th post, but somehow, that point rings bitterly useless right now.)

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I did not know them until now. But at her request…

I did not know them until now. But at her request, I light a candle. For him. For both of them. And for their children.Peace in Christ.

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Geekdom Personified

There are many ways in which I am a geek and further ways in which I exhibit said geek behavior. But even I am beginning to admit that this current venture may just take the cake.

I have a homeschool notebook. Now, this is in addition to my new blog. Yep. I have a blog on homeschooling. But I don’t have kids! (Yet.) There’s so much information on the internets. I wanted a place to mull it over. Ponder. Discuss.

But this notebook takes things to a new level. It is a white binder, neatly labeled with a decorative sheet in the display pocket. “Homeschooling Ideas.” Fantastic. Inside, there are five tabs.

  • General articles.
  • Curriculums.
  • Inspiration.
  • Projects.
  • Trips.

The general articles are things like some of the legal aspects to homeschooling, or ideas for resources, such as various websites. Curriculums are articles about the various types of homeschooling. Inspirations are articles and blog entries that reinforce WHY I want to homeschool. Projects and trips are ideas for all sorts of things I want to do when I start homeschooling.

All neatly organized and often updated for the day that I will have babies that have heads that need filling.

Consider this Item #29583 on why I am a geek. And poke over to Sass It On Home and let me know what you think.

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Why? Why? Why, for the love of God, why?

That’s what someone asked me recently, when I told them of my desire to one day homeschool my children. “But that’s the best part of kids!” The insisted. “Sending them off to school!”

Bah. I disagree.

I have a lot of friends who are teachers, so I’m not one of these people who hates the public school system. In fact, I am a proud product of a public school and I value the experiences I gained through that. However, I want something different for my kids.

I want to infuse their lives with joy. Individuality. A framework that allows them room to be their own person but establishes the foundation for their little lives to be built upon.

If they are not morning people, then I say they shall sleep until 9:30. If they are morning people, then they can play quietly until Mommy gets up at 9:30. Okay? Great. (I know, I know. Keep dreaming.)

I was in love with history when I was a kid. But there were no “social studies” until 4th grade. So, in third grade, I took it upon myself to do a “unit” on the Civil War. That included reading books about it under my desk during “penmanship”, coloring a giant map of which states were Southern and which were Northern, and who knows what else.

I want to give my kids that. I want to take them places, show them things, watch them explore. I want to know them. Teachers are wonderful people, but I don’t think it’s fair that someone else witness some of the most important moments in my child’s life.

There’s also my faith. I don’t like to think of myself as a crazy Christian fundamentalist, and I’m not. However, I don’t want to spend hours a day unteaching things kids learn in elementary school. It’s a fine line, you know? Yes, Islam exists and we should respect other cultures, but Christ is the one true way.

The key to my philosophy, I think, is the idea of building a foundation and allowing my child to build any kind of house he or she wishes. I have a specific foundational design in mind but I don’t care what the house looks like. A science nerd? Sure. A music lover? Great. A history geek? Fantastic. But I want all my children to have sound values, solid principles, and most of all – joy.

Idealistic? Unrealistic?

I hope not.

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Oh Captain, my Captain

Oh, school. Oh, fickle, fickle academics. Oh, my ability to focus, where have you gone?

The good news is, Lara helped me get focused. And there’s still enough time in the semester to recoup my grades.

I am writing two major papers:

1) John Burwe11 was President of (My College) from 1872-1890. This was a time of tremendous growth and development for the institution. How did Burwe11’s past experiences affect his time here? What are the current day ramifications of the Burwe11 administration?

2) The United Daughters of the Confederacy and their impact on the religion of the Lost Cause.

Plus, I’m doing a major research project on how Cosmopolitan has covered politics in the past 30 years.

Fantastic.

In the meantime, I’m setting some goals for myself.

  1. Travel more. I want to have a little fund where, as soon as I get a certain amount of money, I travel somewhere random. Maybe by myself, even. Maybe to visit friends.
  2. Save more. I want to start saving for a down payment for a condo, to be purchased after I graduate from College. (ONE DAY.)
  3. Get less stuff. I own over 600 books and some of them are junk. I don’t like them, I don’t want them, I’ll never read them again. So, I’m going to try and get rid of some of them. Someone else will enjoy them, and I could use the space.
  4. Have more fun in life. Carpe Diem. Seize the day. Suck the marrow out of life. But don’t choke on the bone, eh? Caaaaarpaaaaaay…. CAAAAAAAAAAARPAAAAAAAAY…. (If you don’t know what that’s from, I don’t know if we can be friends. Mmkay?)

Lastly, I have a big post in the works, with various interview questions. So, if you have any ideas or questions you want to ask me… Let me know!

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